a bad roll that is...
i haven't had the best day.
yelled at my kids a lot (they haven't been on their best behavior either).
called out a lady on craiglist for falsely advertising a baby bouncer i was trying to buy from her.
grumbled and complained to ben about the little girl that lives at our apartment complex who is always bossing my kids around.
and last but not least, i said something pretty rude to this guy who lives in our complex. this man, and older guy, lives in the apartment right next to the spa at our pool, so he often comes out and complains about the kids being too loud or other such nonsense. and EVERY SINGLE TIME i have a conversation with him, i'm not exaggerating here, he gives me at LEAST one piece of unsolicited advice about how to parent my children. here's our conversation today:
man: "wow, those kids sure don't mind the cold water."
me: "nope." (i always try to keep it brief with him hoping he'll get the hint... no such luck)
man: "you know i've lived here 5 years and i have the only pool side apartment in the whole place."
me: i just kind of nod. uh huh. i'm thinking, here it comes....
man: "you know you should really make sure that those kids don't jump into the spa or they could crack their heads open..." (are you kidding me? do you think i'm an idiot and let my kids jump into the spa?)
me: "i can take care of my children on my own, thank you."
he kind of just looked at me stunned and then hobbled off after a minute. why whitney? why? why couldn't i just say, "thanks, i appreciate your concern for my kids." or "yes, they already know they aren't allowed to jump in the spa, but thanks for looking out for them" but no, i couldn't do it...
do you ever feel like you've become the worst version of yourself? i just feel so angry and confrontational today. i think i just need to go to bed and start over tomorrow. and thank you one and all for listening to my negative rant.